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another day another dollar as spongebob would say (lmao). I took a walk on the greenway to get to the phone store to move my phone number onto my new phone. I listened to a podcast about la hiena de queretaro. I'm trying to listen to more podcasts in spanish

it was a pretty dreary day but thankfully it didn't rain at all. i really needed to see nature right now especially since i've been so stressed and angry later

i went to the store and was able to do my transaction pretty easily (thank god! the way thinks are going in my life I expected it to be another battle). then i went to the super g store and got some treats, including a bottled matcha latte and some soft hokkaido milk bread :)

i took the bus back home and shared my bread with my mom and watched novelas with her while reading my

someone on freakscene recommended this book about how the nazis invented modern management. i always knew there was a reason i really hated the corporate world, beyond the extremely obvious. I think about it often how the US is becoming more and more transparently like Nazi Germany. I know many people have pointed out that it has always been this way, and that it only is less brazen to do a lot of this shit outright but it's just really sad that this land my parents and so many other immigrants believed would lead to a better life, can actually lead to our permanent criminalization and incarceration simply because we chose to follow those hopes and dreams. Bureacracy/management allows for evil to proliferate, agentes de hielo are a rogue organization that will be levied against US citizens and immigrants alike and "administrative errors" can lock away our fates forever. I didnt finish the book but something interesting I read was that because the apolitical or halflings are content or indifferent with what the government does in their name the government uses this as "consent" and are somehow legitimatazed. And really I don't have an answer to how to possibly wake people out of this delusion.

by the same token, I found an alternative: a book called 'Pirate Care: Acts Against the Criminzalization of Solidarity'. As we speak the state is moving to take all of us out. Anyone who speaks out about hegemony or genocide, or could be a considered a threat simply by their existence. But at the same time I see so many groups coming together. Jewish voices for peace committing civil disobedience, unions protesting outside oficinas de hielo, as long as people with a conscience have breath there will always be resitence. Again i didn't finish this book either but it prevented me from falling into a dispair-spiral.

i met up with another one of my friends on discord to work on our comic projects together. My project is entitled earthie, it's a one person anthology about a bunch of stories i've been looking at. I need to get more serious about it but have been so preocuppied by geopolitics and my own personal life shit. I worry about the future of this country and my own, i also worry that my current lifestyle is unsustainable. i'm not quite sure how to make it otherwise though.

i'm working on a zine right now too. It's another issue of dromo titled 'la alma en un hilo'. I don't want to get behind on zines either the way i did last year but i't almost seems inevitable. i can't talk like that though! I will be able to do it and it's gonna feel really good looking back at these notes to see how i did.At least, I hope it will...