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life is like...

i'm starting this site in April. for some reason I just like starting things at the beginning of a new month, it's like a blank page. this thought process has it's pros and cons: its good to feel like you have a brand new life, but it also sucks if you decide that the month is already a wash early on and wait for 23 days for the next month to "really start". For now my projects really center around my zines and comics. I've made three zines this year but I have a fuckton more I want to get done. I didn't get into Chicago Zine fest which really bummed me out but I'm going to try and apply for another fest in Chicago, I would really love to visit again this year! I am going to Dear Diary fest and need to start planning for that pretty soon.

i'm writing this while drinking a beer, even though i said i wouldn't drink this month, but after getting through the day i realized that i deserve one.

i spent a lot of the day organizing national geographics going back to like 1968 all up until this year, and man I really love that magazine a lot. i know it's problematic but i just can't help pouring over photos of all these different critters, the beaches, the mountains, all these places i've never been before. the modern ones don't really do it for me, they don't go as hard as they used to, maybe it's the switch from film to digital? it's just not the same. i also looked through a bunch of saturday evening post's and life magazines from the 50's/60's. those magazines are the opposite though, it's just gorgeous hand drawn illustrations. it's so refreshing after seeing so much AI slop on my instagram. i got a bit pissed off at the end, but other than that it was fine.

basically i was helping a friend who's moving houses except she doesn't have any food in her fridge, so i didn't eat until around 6pm. i got fast food and while waiting checked to see if my phone had been delivered on my laptop (i can't even get into why i need a new phone, it's such a wild stupid story) i realized it had but the photo the delivery person posted was not my door and i freaked. i ran all the way home asking why god is challenging me so much. thankfully it was just delivered at a neighbors house and not a completely different neighborhood. i was supposed to chat with a friend today but i completely forgot. so it's been a shit day but i'm home now, i finally have my phone and i'm watching a video about the amazing Julia Butterfly Hill.

projects that I am working on are getting my printmaking setup ready in my studio. i have a letterpress that i bought last year but i fear that i'm missing my breakers and I'll have to buy a pound of it. Also I don't know the font size of any of the letters so there's a couple things i need to do there. I have a couple screens that I need to burn but I've never done that before so I i've been dragging my feet. I have a mental block when it comes to doing things the first time.

i bought a bus pass for the month so i'm hoping that i can travel around the city alot easier. I also need to get serious about budgeting! i can't believe it's April and I don't have a moodboard yet, i'd really like to do that still though.

i never thought id be getting back into more technical stuff in 2025. i like neocities more than github right now because the way i have my gitsite setup i have to do a lot of terminal stuff, versus theres no neocities terminal options (as far as i know). i'm excited to dig into the code and customize this css eventually!